♡ Out Of NoWhere ♡

Going Bald & Then Growing It Back After Chemo

I will never forget the day that I started losing my hair 

I had hair that was long blonde with brown highlight and it was about halfway down my back 

shaved it all off because I got tired of waking up with clumps of hair everywhere

taking a shower and having less hair every time i brushed my fingers threw

went to bed crying every night and woke up crying everyday 

looking in the mirror was hard 

sleeping on a bald head felt so weird 

when it started growing back after using special hair-wash

it didn't bother me i wore my wig everyday and never went out without it

the most exciting part of my day was when i would get home and be able to take it off

my hair grew back dark brown and curly i hate it 

i feel like the ugliest person in the world 

everytime i see someone with hair like mine used to be i hate them with a passion

i hate looking at myself everyday in the mirror without my wig 

i just wish i would be pretty again i never feel pretty anymore

i feel like my Fiancé is going to leave me because my hair isn't long and pretty 

even watching a movie with some actress with long pretty hair with him makes me nervous

i am so scared that i am not good enough for him because of my hair and what i look like

i just wish i could have my self confidence back like the old days 

having caner and losing my hair lowered my self esteem more then ever!