Going Bald & Then Growing It Back After Chemo
I will never forget the day that I started losing my hair
I had hair that was long blonde with brown highlight and it was about halfway down my back
shaved it all off because I got tired of waking up with clumps of hair everywhere
taking a shower and having less hair every time i brushed my fingers threw
went to bed crying every night and woke up crying everyday
looking in the mirror was hard
sleeping on a bald head felt so weird
when it started growing back after using special hair-wash
it didn't bother me i wore my wig everyday and never went out without it
the most exciting part of my day was when i would get home and be able to take it off
my hair grew back dark brown and curly i hate it
i feel like the ugliest person in the world
everytime i see someone with hair like mine used to be i hate them with a passion
i hate looking at myself everyday in the mirror without my wig
i just wish i would be pretty again i never feel pretty anymore
i feel like my Fiancé is going to leave me because my hair isn't long and pretty
even watching a movie with some actress with long pretty hair with him makes me nervous
i am so scared that i am not good enough for him because of my hair and what i look like
i just wish i could have my self confidence back like the old days
having caner and losing my hair lowered my self esteem more then ever!